Friday, December 30, 2011

kaiden's new friend

Kaiden got a new friend for Christmas... a beanie baby teddy bear.  He loves his new pal.  He plays with him, sleeps with him and takes him where ever we go...

kaiden with teddy bear tucked in his coat for a hands-free shopping experience

time for teddy bear to take a nap... in the microwave

Saturday, December 17, 2011

work in progress | part 2

I know you're just dying to know what's going on in this house of ours we're working on.  You're thinking it must be looking beautiful by now.  You're all thinkin' "they've been working on it for like eight months now and with Dan's killer carpentry skills it's gotta be looking pretty, stinkin' sweet by now."

I feel it's time to be real with ya'll...

Do you remember in that one post, I said "things may have to look worse before they can look better"?  Well... things are looking way worse.  Paige, if you're reading, here's a little Celebreality Saturday for you...

as you can tell, this is the family room...

this is what is supposed to be a kitchen... I bet you're wondering what the heck we're doing... you'll see... someday

this is the livingroom/kitchen/playroom... don't you just love the wrapping paper curtains?  I made them myself... all two and a half of them because I ran out of wrapping paper

my kitchen in boxes... carpet samples... a little holiday decor... doesn't it feel so cozy and inviting?
Just so you know, we won't be living like this forever.  This will all be done soon.  Okay, well, maybe not soon, but someday.  Someday it will feel like home.

Just remember, this means PROGRESS and I love my husband.  (he told me to write that).

Friday, December 2, 2011


I enjoy music that speaks to me or talks about something I’m dealing with at a particular time.  Since I’m not good with words or expressing how I feel, sometimes certain music and lyrics can explain my thoughts better than I can.  The song “Greener” by Ryan Seiler is one of those songs.  The words are so real and true:  

I covet what is not near
I overlook what I hold dear

I long for days gone by
days I spent longing for another time

If the grass is greener on the other side
it’s only because I’m not attending mine

I happened to find this video just a couple weeks after I had just moved from Ames to a new town.  As I started watching it I began to cry.  I quickly realized this video was taped in my old neighborhood, on my old street that I had just moved from.  I sat there with tears streaming down my face, longing for my old house, my old neighborhood, my old neighbors... I began thinking of the walks I took in that neighborhood; the stroller rides I took Kaiden on; the different seasons we spent in that house... I longed for those days back.  I longed to be back in that neighborhood with the way things were before. I longed for the culture of that town, for the church we left there, the friends we left there and the life we left there.  Yet, funny thing is, when I was there, when I had all that, I wanted something else... something more.

Dan wanted to design and build and pursue that passion while providing for his family.  He wanted to work for and learn from his dad.  I wanted to be able to stay home with my son.  We wanted to be closer to family.  All these things we couldn’t have or find in Ames.  So we moved to Sioux Center. Now I sometimes find myself longing to go back to Ames.  It’s funny how I can so easily forget the negative things and so easily forget the reason we left Ames and so easily look past the positive things we have now - the things we wanted.

If the grass is greener on the other side, it’s only because I’m not attending mine.

For me, the grass is usually greener on the other side.  So how do I make the grass greener on the side I’m already on?  It’s often a constant battle as there will always be something more or something I perceive to be better than what I have now.  It’s all about perspective and contentment and remembering we are blessed.  I choose to think about the blessings we have here and now: a healthy family; a job Dan enjoys; a husband that does and wants to provide for his family; a healthy, happy son I’m able to stay home with; a house we love.  I also try to remember that even if we did move back to Ames, it wouldn’t be the same.  We would still have struggles and Dan wouldn’t be building with his dad and I wouldn’t be able to stay home with Kaiden and we wouldn’t live close to family.  Rather than wanting more, I need to choose to be content with what God has given me.